Sunday, December 14, 2008

just as i am you rush in without a warning...

It never ceases to amaze me how absolutely incredible our Heavenly Father is. He is the one constant. And it equally amazes me how stupid and screwed up I continue to be, and subsequently it causes me to be amazed, once again, at how wonderful our Savior's grace truly is. 

"Just as I am, you rush in without a warning. I didn't think you would really want to come into this place, and make it feel like Sunday Morning"

All semester, I've been dealing with a lot of just crap in my life that I've been trying so desperately to just brush under the rug. My sin and my shame, a lot of forgotten pain - no rhyme intended - and new issues that have come up in college, I've just tried to avoid and put them on a shelf instead of dealing with them head on. 

This morning in church, I realized how much I've put off finding a church in Knoxville. I've been so thankful for how incredible my high school youth group experience was, for the most part, and I just refused to give that up subconsciously. So, all semester, I've been staying away from church because I've just feared not being able to "feel like Sunday Morning." This morning I felt like "Sunday Morning" and more. Our Savior is absolutely incredible. I just can't even describe it....