The Status of Lent

So this year for lent I gave up eating out (not going too well) and complaining about...the people (aka one person) in my life that drive me insane and I find myself complaining about him/her more than talking about worthwhile things (going better than the not eating out thing). This whole vow to give up complaining has really brought a lot of prayer time over the past couple weeks which is great...aka the point. But it's also forced me to confront the fact that my friendship with said person is essentially over. While I can confront that fact, I cannot confront the person for reasons I cannot say because they could possibly be construed as complaining. Basically...I'm a volcano of complaints about to explode in a mass of word vomit. And the worst part of all of this is that it doesn't matter one bit whether I explode or I just simmer because either way it will ruin my friendship and there is no option in between. So...I'll continue to pray and countdown the days till I can just BE AWAY from it. I realize this is a very passive aggressive post that insinuates a lot of complaints...but no one reads this anyways...so....it essentially doesn't matter.

i have the rearview mirror torn off cause i'm never looking back

Today is one of those days when I am legitimately excited just to be alive. It's not even like I have a good day ahead of me...my planner is actually PACKED with crap I DO NOT want to do today. But I woke up super early to study this morning, had a DELICIOUS pioneer woman cinnamon roll, turned on my favorite acoustic playlist and sat down to read and study and I have just had the best attitude this morning! Some of the songs that came up reminded me of past relationships - the good times, the bad times, and everything in between - and I just...smiled. There have been many a pot hole in my ride in life, but today is the day that I vow not to cuss and scream and have a bad attitude about how they've worn my tires, but instead I have a clear conscience to know that there are bumps in the road for a reason, and I wouldn't take A THING back. One of those boys - we'll call him Andy Davis - once told me that I have a positive outlook on life that is contagious. I envy that boy's outlook of me. But today, I vow to keep that in mind always and strive to make that boy proud and strive to actually keep my attitude the way he sees it. haha! It's just going to be a good day!!! =)....if anyone reads this...which I seriously doubt...if you're out there: I hope your day turns out as fabulous as mine has begun.

Song of the Day? John Mayer 3x5...enjoy the warm fuzzies and endless possibilities!